Lessons for the girls

I've been known this person for almost 6 years.. we firstly knew each other accidentally when we were in a silly situation.. I prepared to over everything about teenage romance life until I got a crazy idea to know a stranger whom no one else could knew except myself. So we finally knew each other on January 27th 2007. It was on Saturday.. I still remember I was 14 years old and he was 15. He went to different school with me, he had already in high school while I was still sat a junior high school--grade 9. When he wanted me more and asked me about my mobile phone number I gave him my home phone number cause my mobile phone crashed and at service center. He said to me, he would like to call me that night but I didn't care about what he said. I didn't realize that my idea would brought me to a new rollercoaster life. I wish I never had the idea....
Around 9 pm he called me, I wasn't at home cause I was in my cousin's home, I forgot about it, but suddenly I remember about him, so I went home and that was true. My mother told me that there was a boy called and asked about me, my mom's voice was sounded bit angry and she asked me in a sleepy sound who was that person, I told her that boy was my school friend. My mom then went to sleep , about 2 mins later the phone was rang again . When I firstly hear the voice I knew and always recognize his voice forever.. It was him whom called me and we talked on the phone for the first time that night in almost 2 hours. The next days.. he called me again and I was so thankful cause my mobile phone finally back to me so I told him to contact my mobile phone number only cause I didn't want to make my mom doubt and felt bothering every time she heard the phone was rang for me. My next days were fulled with him. We never stopped contacting to each other. Texting and calling both of them were our daily things we did. I asked him why he interested with me, he said : "It was because you knew all Blink 182 members, I was so surprised knowing you could told me about Blink 182 and the stuffs.." hahaha it looked silly but that's us. Our position in our different band as bassist also his reason why he wanted to know about me more. We finally became couple on February 12th 2007. Even we didn't live in the same place, not went to the same school our early relationship seemed so strong. Every Saturday night he always called me.. always until 9 months later...
Everything was suddenly changed when I found out his bad habit, his addiction with online games. Once, in a gloomy Saturday night he didn't make a call. I was waiting desperately, until I gave up. Then he sent me a SMS. He was in addiction with online games and he didn't know how to stop that. He often skipped school just for playing online games. He even stole his mom's money for paying some stuffs in online games that I didn't clearly know. I told him to stop, I didn't want to see his black future. I warned him about the treat from school,he probably couldn't continue the next grade but he never listened what I said. And yes, it was came true. He couldn't continue the next grade and had to stay again in the same grade for a year. His addiction led our "relationship" became worse. We often had misunderstanding and fought. In the next year finally he could continue again his school to the next grade which made him sat in the same level of school with me. When he finally could continue to the next grade of school , which that time he went to the 11th grade,he went to the Majoring of Language. At first I didn't know about the rule at his school cause I was continued my high school not at the same place with him , I went to the tourism high school majoring of Tour and Travel Industry. Since he sat in 11th grade his behavior was getting worse and worse, one day I woke up and read his message on SMS I knew.. it felt like I didn't know him anymore. My next days were so gloomy , I didn't know what was really happening with him. I lost him.
Stepped into the new year of 2008 I was still lost in contact with him, we haven't met again since December 2007. I gave up, I knew that must be a way for us to reunite again if we had a chance. In March 2008 our relationship back in normal. We were still became couple until December 2008.. God ! I hate the last month every year!. Our relationship back in danger but that time it wasn't cause of online games..
Since he sat in majoring of language at 11th grade I found out he had started to have more girl-friends, one of them I watched from afar seemed fell in love with him. I never discussed or asked who was she to him cause I was afraid he thought me I had jealousy. No, I wasn't got jealous at all. I just wanted to know her not because I hate her, just curious. But my feelings always said something different about this girl, I had bad feeling that someday this girl would take my boyfriend away from me...
2009 came, new year new life. In the mid of March 2009 God gave me an enlightment for me. God shown me what he had been hide and what I had been worried about after all this time. God shown the miracles of his own. In the mid of March 2009 our relationship was officially broke.
I couldn't tell on this blog what was really happened in the mid of March 2009 but it was pretty enough for me to leave him forever. 2009 later became my new moon phrase. I really had turning point at that year. Even "a huge hole" stayed in my heart. I must to continue with my life.
And..here I am, a student of Russian Literature and Culture in one of famous state University in Indonesia. I could passed the new moon in 2009 though it wasn't really happy and easy things for me but finally I could passed the challenge.
I just wanna tell to all readers whom may be read my writing, specially for girls. If you had a crazy idea of romance please re-think again about it. I won't see y'all regretting what have you done. You know, regretting is good just don't let it happens for permanently in your life if you already trapped in that way. Remember , you don't need to worry and hurry about your romance .. once you feel ready then God give you the right one :)

Night. xo